Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Living Your Life

Typing one handed is really the pits, but it beats not being able to type at all. In five weeks the sling comes off and some of my freedom will return also. So excited for the little things. My Doctor has given me the okay to walk, (don't fall), and I can start spinning on a stationary bike with my brace on. Yippee! This layoff has me paying a lot more attention to the quantity of food I put in my mouth. I don't want to wake one morning and not recognize myself. The less I exercise, the less I eat. It feels good to not be shoveling food into my mouth 24-7. When I am training on a daily basis, it gets ridiculous. I start eating early in the morning and I don't stop until my head hits the pillow. It's like I have no control. I hate that!

I've got a terrible case of FOMO right now. (fear of missing out). I hate it that everyone is running and seeking adventure and I am sitting here waiting for an update on facebook! Did I say BORING?! Sorry for my belly aching. I've got to go now, it's been ten minutes and I feel an email coming on. Wishing all of my blogger friends, all three of you, a great evening! Run on a cool trail and think of me!

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

SOON....


I had surgery to repair my torn subscapularis earlier than originally planned. Last Friday, April Fools Day, I went under the knife. This puts me 3 weeks ahead of schedule! I will be running 3 weeks sooner, uh, walking, 3 weeks sooner is more like it! I thought that 5 days post op would have me power walking the streets, instead, I am power napping in a recliner! This is NOT what I had envisioned. I carry this huge apparatus the Doctor calls a sling, 24-7. Off only to take a shower. This is definitely more than I bargained for, but totally necessary. My sister Shawn, had surgery on her finger the same day. The walking wounded.

All of my racing plans for this season is caput and I am feeling quite trapped. Oh, and typing one handed really sucks, too. But life is GOOD. Soon these legs will be moving forward and I will be planning my next adventure. SOON....

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Sunday, March 27, 2011

I need WHAT?


“Somebody ought to tell us, right at the start of our lives, that we are dying. Then we might live life to the limit every minute of every day. Do it, I say, whatever you want to do, do it now.” — Michael Landon

My "living life to the fullest", came to an abrupt halt when my Doctor told me that I would need surgery on my shoulder. I heard what he said, but I had a hard time really believing him. I have races to run, places to go, and adventures to unfold. Crap, I have Mt. Blanc to run in August! But the reality is that I have a serious tear of my subscapularis tendon and it needs to be repaired. You may recall that I fell the day before I left for Costa Rica. I thought I had broken my arm but then realized that my shoulder was jacked up. I've waited for two months hoping that it would heal.... but to no avail. So, I go under the knife on April 18th for an arthroscopic repair that is going to leave me "resting" for quite awhile. I am bummed. But we all know that shit happens and sometimes there is not a thing we can do about it. When you play hard, things are bound to happen. And happen they did. So enough whining for now. I am not sick nor am I dying so I need to get on with my bad self. But first.......anyone have any suggestions about what I might do to keep in shape while I am in a sling for 6 weeks and unable to run? Anyone, anyone?

Hopefully, the weather will start turning warm and dry before too long. I am so ready for the warmth of the sun on my face. Don't put off living your life!!

Friday, March 25, 2011


Happiness does not come from doing easy work but from the afterglow of satisfaction that comes after the achievement of a difficult task that demanded our best." - Theodore I. Rubin

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Seeing old friends


Today was a special day for me. I got to have breakfast with four friends from College. I hadn't seen any of them for over 30 years!! It sure felt great to laugh and reminisce about our wild days. Last night my old school's football team was inducted into the Hall of Fame. They had a big dinner celebration and I was invited to go, but decided to stay home instead. It would have been great to see all of the guys from the team, but I felt it would be best to leave the past, the past. So meeting up with four girlfriends seemed like a less complex thing to do. I am so thankful to have gotten together with them. I also got to see all of the pictures from the dinner and so it was almost like being there!! Great fun!

On the running side of things....well, that sucks. I am contacting my Doctor tomorrow because I am just not feeling that good. I am really tired and I have no power in my legs. My Lupus numbers are up and I am feeling weird. It's as if I am a balloon and the air has been released. " Help!!! I've fallen, but I can't get up!"

Lot's of stress in my life right now is not helping and I am feeling like I need to STOP THE BUS, I WANT TO GET OFF!! Not such an easy task, so I've got some work to do both emotionally and physically.

Yesterday was a beautiful day and today it is raining. Kind of like my life right now. Some days are diamonds and some days are stones. Let's all make this next week a Diamond week!

"The more light you allow within you, the brighter the world you live in will be."
-Shakti Gawain

Thursday, March 3, 2011


TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING
THROUGH THE DESERT.
DURING SOME POINT OF THE
JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN
ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND
SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE
IN THE FACE

THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED
WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT
SAYING ANYTHING,
WROTE IN THE SAND,

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

THEY KEPT ON WALKING,
UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,
WHERE THEY DECIDED
TO TAKE A BATH

THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN
SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE
MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING,
BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.

AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM
THE NEAR DROWNING,
HE WROTE ON A STONE:

'TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SAVED MY LIFE'

THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED
AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND
ASKED HIM, 'AFTER I HURT YOU,
YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,
YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?'

THE FRIEND REPLIED
'WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US
WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN
IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF
FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.

BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,
WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE
WHERE NO WIND
CAN EVER ERASE IT'

LEARN TO WRITE
YOUR HURTS IN
THE SAND AND TO
CARVE YOUR
BENEFITS IN STONE.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Rain, rain, go away


So, I am sitting at this damn computer waiting for the cold rain to stop. Yesterday's run was cold. Snowing, hailing and just miserably cold. My hands were so frozen that when I stopped running and got into my car, the pain in my hands was UNBEARABLE. It felt so good to have my hands feel normal again. Today, the rain continues. Suz and I have a tentative plan of running when the rain eases up. So, I sit here. My run yesterday was a good one despite the weather. I've needed a feel good run.

Today I get a MRI on my left shoulder. Years ago I had a psycho patient yank my arm and proceeded to tear my rotator cuff. I never had surgery and my shoulder has been okay. Not perfect, but I was okay with it. Two days before I left for Costa Rica, my dog Jada ran into the back of me on a rocky downhill, and I put my bad shoulder down to protect my fall and, OUCH! I thought my left arm was broken. Now, I think I have re torn my rotator or something in there. The cortisone shot that I got last week has not touched the pain and I am anxious to get feeling better. My Doctor doesn't want me to use my left arm until we know what's going on.

On the positive side of things, my knee is finally getting back to normal. That has been a long haul! Always something. This getting old thing really sucks!

I am looking forward to long, warm days. I'm missing the hot, humid weather of Costa Rica. I love the heat and could live in that environment eternally. The weather here is cold and rainy, and the dark sky is really quite a downer. I am going to visualize a warm ocean with the hot sand between my toes. I'll see how that works for me. Happy weekend, friends!

Wednesday, February 9, 2011


“To have striven, to have made the effort, to have been true to certain ideals--this alone is worth the struggle.” -William Penn

The Challenge at The Coastal Challenge




Sitting at my computer, reflecting on my experience at TCC, it is hard to put into words the experience that I had. Of course I am disappointed that I was unable to complete the race. I ran 4 of the 6 days and was not feeling great for 3 of those days. It's just the way it is. Nothing I could have done about it. Several runners were down with vomiting, diarrhea, fever and body aches. It was crazy to see the chaos that this illness brought. I think I had it mild compared to many people. So disappointing and so hard to except.

The experience was great despite all the problems Tamara and I had with these flu like symptoms. Lot's of laughs and tears. The people we met, the places we ran and saw, the animals, the race.....priceless.

I'll never forget the rugged Rainforest trails, navigating through mud, vines and beautiful plants and greenery. I'll never forget the animal that hissed at me and spit either fluid or air, (maybe both), on me and caused me to scream into an already loud Jungle. Swimming with my pack on as the waves of the ocean pulled me down steam. The huge bug in my drink, was it a crab? The night we used our head lamps to look for crocodiles and we found them. Their big eyes illuminated by our lights. The stars that were so bright and clear in a perfectly perfect sky. I'll never forget the people. The Costa Rican hospitality. The CR runners that would so graciously offer a hand to me, while racing, when the footing was slippery and the water so crazy. Making sure I got out of a precarious position safely. The European runners with their skimpy booty shorts....funny! The coffee!! The beautiful birds and the incredible beaches with not a soul on them. The warm, bath like water that soothed my aching body and restored my soul. And lastly, the wonderful friends I met. Gillian and Martin, Alec and Jorge. Best friends forever.

A stage race like this is more of an adventure race than just a running race. Many different experiences than you would ever find in an average race. I think it is much more difficult than running a 100 miler. The day after day of difficult footing and heat and humidity. Our meals were made for us. Last time I enjoyed the eggs, rice, beans and fruit. This time it was hard to comprehend eating those meals with an upset stomach. Everyday it was basically the same meal, only a different combination of the same food. Rice for dinner and rice pudding for dessert. What is tolerable one day is totally intolerable the next. Foot care is prudent in the jungle. When your feet are wet continuously, you must take every precaution that you can to prevent blisters. Pre taping is a must. My drymax socks worked perfectly and I am happy to report that I had no blisters at all. Keeping hydrated is also very important. Good fueling and taking electrolytes are a number one priority. Being dehydrated or low on electrolytes could cost you the race or worse. You must keep on your toes in a race like this. Always thinking and making decisions. Stage races are great. I think I like them. No, I think I LOVE them. Sickness got me this time, but I will be back to do another one. Life is too short, don't waste it. PURA VIDA.