Wednesday, March 18, 2009



Your biggest challenge isn't someone else. It's the ache in your lungs and the burning in your legs, and the voice inside you that yells, "CAN'T," but you don't listen. You just push harder. And then you hear the voice whisper, "can." And you discover that the person you thought you were is no match for the one you really are.---unknown

Monday, March 16, 2009

Quality vs Quantity


Yesterday, I met a friend whom I met in Costa Rica at Rodeo Beach for a 1.5 hour run. He was here for a wedding and I was anxious to show him the Marin Headlands. He lives in Iowa and so it was nice to show him some local trails. Unfortunately, it was very foggy and we had some rain, but the run was great nonetheless.

My running buddy, Karen shattered her wrist at the C2M race this weekend and is scheduled for surgery on Friday. I feel so sorry for her because she has been running so well and she has several races planned this year. Hopefully she will have a fast recovery and be out on the trails real soon.




Are you in a rut? Do you run the same trails day after day? Do you finish every run at almost the exact time that you finished yesterday? That my friend, will not get you the results that you are seeking. I believe that we must continue to run different loops, at different speeds, varying the speed and effort every time. That will make you a stronger runner. That will make you a faster runner. Try and make every run a quality run. It doesn't really matter if you only have a half hour to run. Make that half hour count. Quality over quantity.

I love this quote: Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results--Albert Einstein

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I am Angry


Life has been crazy lately. Blogging has been the last thing on my mind.

Running has been going well. I feel good and I have gotten in a few good quality runs. On March 28th, I am running Lake Sonoma 50 mile so I hope I have a good run there.

I am full of all kinds of different emotions today: anger, resentment, sadness, loss of control, chaos. My mind is spinning and my heart is heavy. My Mom is sick. It's hard to even say the word.... Cancer. There, I said it. I wish it would go away. I feel sick inside. I don't want my Mom to be afraid or to feel pain. I only want a perfect life for her. Stress can make you sick. Cancer sick, I don't know. I suspect lingering stress can cause disease which is exactly why I don't want it bottling up in my body. It has been, though, and I must find a way to release it. I want absolutely no part of sick. I think I will go out for a run.

Cancer insists on its own time. If you try to defy it, it can break you, physically and spiritually. It doesn't know deadlines and vacations, it doesn't care if you are old or young. Cancer is analog in a digital world. If you have a Type A personality, you will need to adjust to Type C-for cancer. Each phase of the disease, diagnosis, surgery, radiation and other treatment- carries its own distinct sense of stepping outside traditional time, its own bitter flavor of dislocation. Cancer has a way of sneaking into a perfect world and silently taking up residence. Cancer sucks, and I hate it.

Friday, February 27, 2009

A great day for a day off!


Today is a BEAUTIFUL day here in Santa Rosa. The sun is out and it is NOT raining. I went out for a 7 mile run today and it felt really good. I thought I was running pretty fast and then when I looked at my watch, it told me otherwise. Oh well!

This was overheard at The Coastal Challenge this year by Scott Jurek. Scott has won Western States 100, 7 consecutive times from 1999-2005. He will be competing there again in 2009. He is an amazing ultra runner with many wins under his belt. This is what he said when asked to compare The Coastal Challenge to a typical 100 miler.

"It's like breaking one's hand one finger at a time, versus breaking the entire hand at once." That says a lot, coming from Scott!



Tomorrow is a long run with a couple of friends. Meredith is joining us too, from Austin Texas. She and I were on the Montrail team together and have run many of the same races. It will be a fun run.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

I hope you enjoy these few pics from Costa Rica. What a beautiful country!




I went for a run today in Annadel. I just love this park. I use to ride my horse there when I was little. It was always a long day, because my house was quite a long way from it and after riding in the 5000 acre park all day, I would ride home. In my 20's, I use to ride and train my horse for endurance racing there, too. It has always been a special place to me. The lake is finally rising with all this rain and it's beginning to look "beautiful" again.




Sugarloaf Park is another favorite place of mine to run. The trails are steep, but it is an excellent place to train for ultra's. I try and get over there a couple of times a week and it is always a peaceful place. Not many people go there and so my "twisted sister" Suz, and I always run there without ever seeing anyone.




My son Caleb and I want to do a backpacking trip together this summer. I am excited to spend the time with him. I hope he wants to do a trip to Mt. Whitney too. Lots of things to think about. I may run a race in Colorado also. Training at altitude is important, so I may have to incorporate that into my schedule. So many things to do, so little time.........











Sunday, February 22, 2009

My so called TCC race report


I have been writing up a race report for The Coastal Challenge for days now. As I mentioned before, I did not keep a daily journal as I had planned. It is really difficult to talk about each day without feeling like I am leaving out important things as each day was filled with so much adventure that I am unable to put it into words. I think what I am going to do is just give you a brief report about what I saw and how I felt. I am going to just be lazy this time. Trying to remember what happened in the order that it did is impossible without notes. Here is a brief bla bla bla.

Day 1: 33.5k The race started in Quepos, as small palm tree lined beach town nestled along the coast. The heat and humidity was staggering. We ran along a hot unpaved road before crossing a very old, rural bridge. We ran through an African date palm plantation and the bugs were so loud that it was hard to hear myself think. Soon the road took off through an overgrown area with lots of roots covered by tall grass and leaves. There was no trail and we climbed and tiptoed through what looked like a snake filled swampy area. I fell into a large body of water as I tried to navigate my way through the jungle. The water was deep and up to my arm pits. I tore my Nathan pack when I fell in. The climbing was very hard and technical, but I loved every minute of it. We eventually crossed the Savegre River on a metal pull cart and enjoyed the rain that fell on us that afternoon. We finished this stage at the Rafiki Jungle Lodge.



Day 2: 39k We woke up early and the rain had stopped. Everything was wet. Actually everything was ALWAYS wet 24-7. Today we ran straight up into the Rain forest looking for pink trail markers to guide our way. The mud was as deep as my knees and several times I lost my shoes. Searching for my socks in the mud is hilarious when you realize that the socks you have been searching for are still on your feet. Digging through the mud for your shoes is comical too. I only found it comical once I looked back on it! At the race briefing every night, Rodrigo the course designer would go over the course. The only words I heard him say every night were DEHYDRATION, ELECTROLYTES, IV FLUIDS, SNAKES, ANTI-VENOM, CROCS, MUD, HILLS, MONKEYS, WATER, HEAT, HUMIDITY, SNAKES, SPIDERS, SNAKES, SNAKES, HEAT, HUMIDITY. I think you get what I am saying. That is all I heard. So during each stage, I tried to remember what he said we would encounter. All I could hear were the above words. I heard them LOUD and CLEAR. The uphills were brutal and the downhills were horrendous, spending hours running around and through sinkholes, mudslides, vines, rocks and who knows what. We finished in Dominical where we camped beside a beautiful ocean beach.



Day 3: 52.2k Today was just a killer day for me. We ran for almost 2 hours along a boulder filled large river where we navigated ourselves from one side to the other trying to make our way as fast as we could. I can't tell you how many times I fell off of slippery rocks and into the water. Finally, I had to jump off of a tall rock ledge and swim as I had navigated myself too high on the rocks and had no other option. A beautiful waterfall met us at the end of this long trek. Today I spent the whole day running alone. The climbs were steep and technical and the beach running was long and strenuous. The Howler monkeys yelled at me as I climbed past there playground and it was on this section that I saw my first snake. It had a small mouth so I figured I was safe. I finished at a remote beach called Ventanas. I had had a long day.


Day 4: 37.5k This day was another difficult day of climbing straight up into the Rain forest. At the top I could see the Talamanca Mountains on one side and the Ocean 3000 ft. below. Jaclyn and I ran together on this day and actually finished together. It was a long day and it was very difficult mentally as well as physically. The race personnel were not allowed to tell us how far we had to go at any point. They were instructed to either say that we were "almost there", or that we had only "3k" to go. Many times after telling us that we were "almost there", we would run for 3-4 more hours. It was brutal and frustrating at times. I think that is why I loved it. I was pushed to the limit everyday and I love that aspect about doing difficult adventures. The down hill took us over an hour to go a half of a mile. Jaclyn and I continually fell and the terrain was brutal and dangerous. The last several miles were very hot and we were so happy to be finished that day. A man in a truck gave several of us a ride to our campsite. We camped next to a river lagoon that was filled with lots of crocodiles.



Day 5: 47.4k We were loaded onto a boat in the wee hours of the morning and brought down the croc infested water to our starting line. This day was suppose to be "all runnable". Yeah right. We started this run up a hill and ran into the Osa Peninsula which is one of the most verdant and desolate places in all of Costa Rica. This area is described by National Geographic as "one of the most biologically intense places on earth". The Osa abounds with plants, mammals, insects and over 350 species of birds. We crossed 30 to 40 water crossings this day and Ligia and I ran together and finished together. This was the hardest day mentally for me. Ligia and I kept each other moving forward and the heat and humidity was very oppressive. We ran past a mangrove forest. Mangrove trees grow in the water I believe, and many snakes and crocodiles live among these trees. We finished at Drakes Bay tired and happy to be done with day 5.

Day 6: 23.7k Today was our last day. We started up a hill (duh), that totally kicked my butt and then descended onto a river which was at least knee high of crystal clear water. We proceeded to climb up a cliff next to a water fall which was wet and slippery. Bill helped me up as I was a little unsteady. After climbing a fixed metal ladder, we made our way up to a road that rims the border of Corcovado National Park. We climbed up and then down and our final descent brought us through the jungle and beach and then to Drakes Bay once again.



What can I say about TCC? It was brutally hard, it was hot and humid and the mountains and terrain were unforgiving. It was the hardest thing I have ever done and the greatest thing I have ever done. I learned a lot about myself and I liked what I saw. Would I do it again? You betcha. The race director, Tim and Rodrigo said it was the hardest race they have ever put on. I believe them. I am so blessed to have experienced this. I finished 3rd woman. The two women who beat me are in their early 30's. I am almost 20 years older than they are. I think I was 9th overall. I feel good about how I did. For the record this is what I did right. I drank water and used Nuun in my hydration pack. I took at least 2 succeed caps per hour. I ate every half hour as I know that calories =energy. I used no nsaids. I got a painful massage every night. I ate well. I kept hydrated and I kept positive. I felt great the whole race!

Monday, February 16, 2009

Two Wolves


Two Wolves
One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside all people. He said, "My son, the battle is between two "wolves" inside us all.

One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt,resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: "Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

Back to Reality


I went out for a slow, short jog today and I felt really good. Everything seems to be in working order and so I am anxious to be out on the trails again. I am attempting to write up a race report to share with you all, but my day to day recollection is sketchy at best. Unfortunately, I didn't journal my race as I had planned and it's hard to remember everything that I would love to share with you. In a few days, I will have something that resembles a race report and that will have to do.

I feel excited and anxious today, as I have a race hidden up my sleeve that I would like to enter. I am keeping it a secret for now. Matt knows, and he is somewhat interested himself. We will see..... I wanted to thank Drymax socks for supplying me with the greatest socks ever! I also wanted to give a thumbs up to Nuun electroyte tabs too!! Oh, and a huge shout-out to Succeed tabs and Nathan also! All of your products Rock and helped me finish TCC in one piece!

The weather sucks today. Lots of cold, cold rain. How I long for heat again. Have a great Monday!

Friday, February 13, 2009

Home at Last!!

Photo by J. Andres Vargas

We arrived home early this morning from Costa Rica and boy, is it good to be home! If I could be anywhere else though, I would be running in the Rainforest or running along a beautiful beach in CR right now.

It will take me a few days to write a race report. I don't feel that writing down my experience will really give this race the glory it deserves. It exceeded all my expectations and I really learned about how mentally strong I am. I learned a lot about my self during this race. I learned that I really do like the person that I have become. I realized just how blessed I am to be fortunate to have my health and the inner strength to take risks. When you are out there stripped of make-up, perfume, and God Forbid, earrings, (I lost my earring somewhere in about 2 feet of mud!), you really get a chance to see what you are made of. Sometimes you like what you see, other times you don't. Dirty, smelly, and sans makeup or earrings, I realized I like what I saw. I realized that I have become so comfortable in the skin that I walk around in everyday, that I was covering up who I really am deep inside. I am thankful that my life has made me strong and powerful. My former husband, Blake, years ago told me that I would make it in life because I was a survivor. I don't recall what I thought of that statement then, but I have heard his voice telling me that when I have dug deep during a tough race or experience and it makes me feel good. I heard myself repeating "you're a survivor, Kelly", many times as I navigated through the Jungle or ran endless hours in large rivers all the while falling down only to get up and fall again.

My friend Heather told me that she remembers her Dad telling her as a kid when they would be experiencing something really beautiful or memorable, this saying. He would say, and I quote, "I wonder what the poor folks are doing?" He wasn't saying it because they were financially rich, but that they were just so blessed. I found myself crying this morning when I told my daughter Chelsea that story of Heather's dad. I never met Heather's Dad, but I heard him up on a tall jungle mountain as I saw beauty like you can't even imagine. I felt so rich with happiness that it was just so overwhelming. I never met you, Heathers Dad, but your saying has blessed me and made me rich.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

An email from Kelly to family and friends

hi everyone,
well, the race is over and i am so happy to be finished with this adventure. the coastal challenge was the hardest race i have ever done. they didn't tell us that we would be swimming and bouldering, and running up steep muddy rainforest trails. actually they were not trails, we had to navigate straight up through the jungle looking for course markers. the heat and humidity was outrageous. we saw snakes, alligators, and lots of monkeys. they kept telling us that they had plenty of anti-venom in case we got bit by a snake. that was reasurring. one day we swam for 2 hours through a large river with our packs on before running for 7 hours more. on that day, i ran alone for 8 hours in the rainforest. it was exciting and exhausting all at the same time. camping in the middle of nowhere is interesting too. there was no downtime and the spiders in our make-shift cold showers were as big as softballs. i came in 3rd. the two women who beat me are in the 30s, so i can't complain. if you thought i was skinny before, well baby, look at me now!! wow, what 6 days in the jungle does to the bod!! thanks everyone for all the support. i love you all.
hi mom, i miss you and you have been constantly on my mind. i wore the angel pin you gave me and it worked!! i love you.

Caleb, Chelsea, and Courtney, i hope everything is going good. i love you guys so much. we will see you soon. email me if you can and let me know how everything is going.

love to pat, wally and angie shawn and friends. can't wait to tell you all about this race. they said it was the hardest one they have ever done. i believe them.

kelly and momma